There is a journalist I like, who mostly reviews cars. He's a pretty popular personality and since he's a reviewer, he's really opinionate, and doesn't really apologize for anything. I apologize for a lot, very easily. But I really like one thing he's said, and thats that he reserves the right to change his mind. If he doesn't like a car at one point, he's allowed to say why, and later that year if something happens and it just *clicks* in his head, and all of a sudden he gets why the designers/engineers did what they did, then he should be allowed to voice that he wasn't necessarily "wrong", but he just changed his mind.

I forget things, a lot. I forget my opinions and my views. I forget advice I've given, and jokes I make and why I told them. Being told I said something that, out of context, just sounds embarrassing is hard. Why did I say that? It doesn't sound like me at all! It must have made sense at the time. I wonder why this happens. Maybe its because I'm young and my personality is still young too. I change my mind a lot I think, and so I forget my opinion. I'm also pretty stubborn about things, which is an interesting mix, I think. Being stubborn and having a change of mind. Does that work?

I did not like miata's this time last year. I thought they looked like big bars of soap. I respected them, because they are small, light, balanced and made for autocross. They're also almost directly inspired by the Lotus Elan from the 60's (just before the golden era of automotive design in my opinion). But, until I studied about them, and realized their influence, I just thought they were little funny looking japanese cars, and I did not like Japanese auto design. The more I learned about Mazda and the companies foray into motorsports, the more I respected them. They're the only Japanese car company to win at Le Mans. With a car so fast (powerful rather) it was banned the next year!

Now I own one and I absolutely love it. I still don't really like Japanese cars, and I cannot stand JDM/Boy Racer body kits people put on Miata's because it takes away from the old British influence, but thats their car, and they can do whatever they want. It's a good car.

The combination of being curious about a sports car that drives like how I wish my car would drive, and having a pretty stressful change in my life really acted as a catalyst for me to sell my beloved Jetta and dive into this investment. I was fired from my first real design job, and I broke up with my girlfriend that I lived with. I found a new job in a month and then I needed something to change that was mine to work on and obsess over. And even though the new job was MY job, its not my company, and its not my life, its not relaxing and an escape - I don't take it home with me, even though I love what I do. This was something to meditate on. It just so happened that it was something small and sporty.

I am still amazed by how easy it happened. I needed something easy to happen.